Hercules and the ants

My GREAT and BIG Father

I suddenly realised how small I have made You all my life. We see these movies or hear the songs or read these stories about the battles between You and the enemy and they depict You and the enemy as equals in the battle. They depict your army as just being better organised and disciplined and that is why they win against the unorganised, infighting, undisciplined army of the enemy.

That is not the only truth. The bigger truth is that You are just stronger and bigger and mightier and more powerful than the enemy can ever hope or dream to be in any lifetime.

You are like Hercules and the enemy and his cronies area like ants. You can blow them away with a whisper, squash them with your small tone or your thumb. Their threats and curses and evil ways do not even have a slight effect on You. You blow it of like a bug, You squash the enemy like a bug. They are just a nuisance and a bug to You, the Almighty, All Powerful, All Present.

I love You and are so glad YOU are MY DAD.
Your empowered daughter.

Genade

Goeiemiddag Pappie

Genade is net nie iets wat vir my sin maak nie. Maak nie saak hoeveel ek daaroor lees en dink nie. Dit is nie 'n term wat deel is van ons alledaagse woordeskat nie.

Genade vir daardie een wat my so seer maak
Genade vir daardie een wat my so kwaad maak
Genade vir daardie een wat my so bekommerd maak
Genade vir daardie een wat my so in die rug steek
Genade vir daardie een wat my so teleurstel
Genade vir my eie onvermoëns, eie sondes, eie teleurstellings is ook maar oppervlakkig

Genade is net nie 'n begrip wat maklik kom nie en daarom is dit n begrip wat moeilik is om my kop om te kry, om my gedagtes tasbaar te laat maak, om die omvang van te verstaan.

Dankie Abba, dat U nie genade uitdeel met dieselfde maatstaf waarmee ons dit uitdeel nie, want dan was ek regtig in die moeilikheid.

Dankie Abba dat U genade onvoorwaardelik is
Dankie Abba dat U genade sonder einde is.
Dankie Abba.

Trust & Faith & Servanthood

Abba

Trust without Faith is empty and Faith without Trust is empty. 

Faith without Serving is empty and Serving without Faith is as empty.

I proclaim my trust in You God, but do I trust?

I proclaim my faith in You God, but do I believe?

I proclaim my hands and feet and mouth and gifts and money are Yours, but do I serve?

You ask me to trust You with 10% of my income in faith that You will honour Your promises and provide the other 90% I need.

You ask me to trust You with one day in the week and spend it on You, in faith that You will walk with me the other six days and let it fall into place.

You ask me to trust You with the desires of my heart, that in Your perfect time it will be fulfilled.

You ask me to dream and believe.

You ask me to put my hand in Yours, to walk with absolute faith on the path You are leading me on, trusting implicitly that Your path is the right path.

You ask me to service with humbleness and trust/believe that You will reward me, instead of the instant gratification of the immediate rewards from those around me.

You ask me to service in dirt and blood and undignified situations, like the priest who had to slaughter and offer and burn in the dirt and blood and smells and heat and fire of the temple, the glamour not in the actual task, but in Your presence and the reward afterwards.

You ask me to live a life of joy and energy and optimism and, yes FAITH in the immediate and future.

You ask me to stand on Your promises and KNOW that everything will work out good for those who believe in YOU!

You ask my . . .

FaITh

LOvE

SerVICe

I give it with great difficulty.

I am so sorry God Father

I am so sorry Jesus Christ

I am so sorry Holy Spirit

I am so sorry

Peace is not the absence of trouble but the presence of God.

Skyn liggie Skyn lig SKYN LIG

God, why is the world so blind?

Dearest Daddy

Today I want to climb onto the highest mountain, or grab the microphone of every TV station in the world and shout and weep and shake my fists at the world, especially the so called Christians in the western world.

How stupid can people be?
How ignorant of who and what YOU are?
How can they spout so much holiness in your name, while the fruit of their life is sin, sin, sin?

I read a magazine today and article after article it is pure blasphemy - in YOUR Holy name:

• one couple went away together for an island holiday and the guy prayed for the Holy Spirit to show him when to ask her to marry him, while they are already sharing a bed
• another guy is married to a guy, but writes gospel songs and even recorded a CD
• a Christian magazine advertise a gospel CD with various artists of which the life of half of them is such a mess, with divorces and affairs and living together and and and
• a well known gospel singer is playing in a movie where a virgin is pregnant again and the director talks about Jesus as a prophet
• people sit in church with sanctimonious faces while they are abusing their wives and kids, having alcohol, drug, gambling, porn addictions
• Christians are turning the other cheek in the name humanism and not offending the world, out of fear of being called fanatics
• Jesus has become this loving, weak, ATM, we can do what we want, as long as He provides in all our DESIRES - not needs - no our want, want, want desires

I read your Word and I know that Your love is unfathomable, Your mercy and grace is as big as the universe, Your answers to prayers are never ending.

BUT I also read that You warn Your children over and over that You are a jealous God, that You EXPECT us to live according to Your commandments and that not one word or title may be changed to suit OUR interpretation or OUR lifestyles.

The world has become no more than animals:
- sex is natural - we cannot do without it, it is unnatural not to have it, God created it after all and therefore He would not expect us to say no, even if not with my wife/husband
- God will forgive and He has brought this over my path therefore I have to do it
- It is such a good deal, it MUST be from God
- the world is doing it, the only way to do business and therefore I cannot be expected to not do it - so lets bribe and call it something else
- we have to live in faith, it is wrong to actually use the very brain and common sense that You have provided for us
- do not be such a wet blanket/ party pooper
- this is the way the world behave, so we just follow along and do it too

We do not control our natural urges, we do not use common sense and intelligence, we do not pray and ask for insight, wisdom and guidance, we feed the flesh, we just crave pleasure and instant gratification, we want it and we want it NOW


"You do not expect me to go without . . ., do you?"
"I do not believe that you are going without . . ., p lease tell me something else!"

I am so frustrated, not with the non-believers, but those who spout their believe/faith every time they get an opportunity, and live such "holy" lives, but who do not live what they read/learn/hear. It does not go from the eyes to the soul and heart and conviction of faith

I am so angry at the weak diluted glamor show of the western Christians.
I am so frustrated with the lies of the satan that are eaten as if it is pure gold, straight from Your mouth.
I am so sad at what we have become and that nobody actually care.

I am so disappointed to be called a freak, uptight, holier than thou by my very brothers and sisters in the blood of Jesus - those who should be standing up for who and what YOU are in unmovable faith.

I am so tired of wanting more from my Christ family than a slight variation of what the world is offering and living and believing.

Daddy - what do we do?
What do we do?

Daddy I am so sorry for what the world has made YOU - the most Holy, the most High, the Alpha and Omega, the Omnipresent, Omnipotent, All Knowing, the King of Kings, The Lord of Lords, the Lover of Your children.

Daddy I am so sorry!!!!!!
Daddy, please forgive us, because we do not even know what we do, in the name of our Bridegroom, Jesus Christ

Loving You Abba, flows over to so many areas

Hello again Daddy

Talking to You is so special and I just cannot get enough of it. How wonderful that You are just ALWAYS there for me, that You always listen and hear what I have to say, but even more wonderful is when I hear You in my heart and spirit and mind and soul.

This morning I was so excited for having finished reading our loveWord from Genesis to Revelation. This time I stuck to the reading plan and the time frame I have decided on and am so excited for having done it. Suddenly I just realised what the discipline in my time and devotion with you is doing to my life as a whole.

The discipline is flowing over into my whole being and mindset.
Planning and sticking to the plan is becoming part of everyday life.
The pleasure and value of spending time with you Daddy and achieving my goals are something I want to experience in every facet of my life now.

I just realised the value of self discipline in my time with you to teach me self discipline in all areas of my life. I just realised that the skills and values and norms and habits we form in our faith journey is directly being translated into our life journey as well.

Now I am angry at all those people that knows so well and tell us there is no value in "just" reading the Bible from one end to the other if we do not follow a specific teaching plan or spend time on verses etc. Yes I do realize that I cannot "just" read the Bible everyday, but if I have not followed my reading plan, I would never have experienced this joy of knowing for once in my life I have set a goal and followed through and achieved it. I would not have understood the value of self discipline like I do now. I would not have had this revelation about the direct link between my journey with you and my "normal" life journey. And then on top off it all, I have read every word of our loveLetter - every single word!! How awesome is that!!!

Daddy, thank You that You take us on roads we do not always even understand, but which You have a purpose with and from which we learn and grow so much. Thank You Daddy for what I have also learned about Your love for me, while I read over the last couple of months and thank You for fixing my heart in the process.

I am just so glad You are my Daddy.
Your daughter with new understanding.

Abba se beloftes

Goeiedag Abba

Vandag is weer 'n nuwe dag, vol hoop en beloftes en moontlikhede. U gee aan ons soveel meer as wat ons kan vra of kan dink of selfs voor kan hoop en tog mis ons soveel van U beloftes elke dag.

* 'n Veilige rit na die skool, werk, huis en oral anders
* 'n Lieflike vroee more en vars lug
* 'n Koel wndjie om lafenis te bring
* Sonlig wat laat groei en ons gesond hou
* Familie, vriende, kollegas, geliefdes
* Vrye toegang tot U Woord (in baie verskillende vertalings en skryfvorms)
* Kos en klere
* 'n Dak oor ons kop en 'n bed en vervoer
* Geleenthede om U beter te leer ken
* 'n Vrye toegang tot binne in U hemelkamer en troon en voor U voete

U belowe ons dat as ons die Naam van Jesus Christus bely IS ons U kinders.
U belowe ons dat as ons binne U wil lewe SAL U ons seen
U belowe ons dat as ons bid tot U HOOR U elke gebed en SAL U dit op die regte tyd beantwoord
U belowe ons dat as ons net glo, ons saam met U die onmoonlike kan verrig en uitrig

U belowe ons dat U ons lief het, dat ons die appel van U oog is, dat ons naam op U handpalm gegraveer is, dat elke haar op ons kop getel is, dat U elke oomblik van die dag by ons is, dat niks en niemand ons uit U hand van liefde kan ruk nie.

Dankie Abba, dat ons elke dag op U beloftes kan staan en weet ons is veilig by U en dat U aan elkeen van ons 'n nuwe naam gee, gegraveer op 'n wit klippie, 'n naam wat net U en ons elkeen sal ken - want ons is kosbaar en spesiaal vir U.

Dankie Abba, dat ek hierdie dag in U naam kan aanpak en met vertroue deur die dag kan gaan, wetend U is by my.
U geliefde dogter