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Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Genade

Goeiemiddag Pappie

Genade is net nie iets wat vir my sin maak nie. Maak nie saak hoeveel ek daaroor lees en dink nie. Dit is nie 'n term wat deel is van ons alledaagse woordeskat nie.

Genade vir daardie een wat my so seer maak
Genade vir daardie een wat my so kwaad maak
Genade vir daardie een wat my so bekommerd maak
Genade vir daardie een wat my so in die rug steek
Genade vir daardie een wat my so teleurstel
Genade vir my eie onvermoƫns, eie sondes, eie teleurstellings is ook maar oppervlakkig

Genade is net nie 'n begrip wat maklik kom nie en daarom is dit n begrip wat moeilik is om my kop om te kry, om my gedagtes tasbaar te laat maak, om die omvang van te verstaan.

Dankie Abba, dat U nie genade uitdeel met dieselfde maatstaf waarmee ons dit uitdeel nie, want dan was ek regtig in die moeilikheid.

Dankie Abba dat U genade onvoorwaardelik is
Dankie Abba dat U genade sonder einde is.
Dankie Abba.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Trust & Faith & Servanthood

Abba

Trust without Faith is empty and Faith without Trust is empty. 
Faith without Serving is empty and Serving without Faith is as empty.

I proclaim my trust in You God, but do I trust?
I proclaim my faith in You God, but do I believe?
I proclaim my hands and feet and mouth and gifts and money are Yours, but do I serve?

You ask me to trust You with 10% of my income in faith that You will honour Your promises and provide the other 90% I need.
You ask me to trust You with one day in the week and spend it on You, in faith that You will walk with me the other six days and let it fall into place.
You ask me to trust You with the desires of my heart, that in Your perfect time it will be fulfilled.
You ask me to dream and believe.
You ask me to put my hand in Yours, to walk with absolute faith on the path You are leading me on, trusting implicitly that Your path is the right path.
You ask me to service with humbleness and trust/believe that You will reward me, instead of the instant gratification of the immediate rewards from those around me.
You ask me to service in dirt and blood and undignified situations, like the priest who had to slaughter and offer and burn in the dirt and blood and smells and heat and fire of the temple, the glamour not in the actual task, but in Your presence and the reward afterwards.
You ask me to live a life of joy and energy and optimism and, yes FAITH in the immediate and future.
You ask me to stand on Your promises and KNOW that everything will work out good for those who believe in YOU!

You ask my . . .
FaITh
LOvE
SerVICe

I give it with great difficulty.

I am so sorry God Father
I am so sorry Jesus Christ
I am so sorry Holy Spirit
I am so sorry
Peace is not the absence of trouble but the presence of God.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

God, why is the world so blind?

Dearest Daddy

Today I want to climb onto the highest mountain, or grab the microphone of every TV station in the world and shout and weep and shake my fists at the world, especially the so called Christians in the western world.

How stupid can people be?
How ignorant of who and what YOU are?
How can they spout so much holiness in your name, while the fruit of their life is sin, sin, sin?

I read a magazine today and article after article it is pure blasphemy - in YOUR Holy name:
  • one couple went away together for an island holiday and the guy prayed for the Holy Spirit to show him when to ask her to marry him, while they are already sharing a bed
  • another guy is married to a guy, but writes gospel songs and even recorded a CD
  • a Christian magazine advertise a gospel CD with various artists of which the life of half of them is such a mess, with divorces and affairs and living together and and and
  • a well known gospel singer is playing in a movie where a virgin is pregnant again and the director talks about Jesus as a prophet
  • people sit in church with sanctimonious faces while they are abusing their wives and kids, having alcohol, drug, gambling, porn addictions
  • Christians are turning the other cheek in the name humanism and not offending the world, out of fear of being called fanatics
  • Jesus has become this loving, weak, ATM, we can do what we want, as long as He provides in all our DESIRES - not needs - no our want, want, want desires
I read your Word and I know that Your love is unfathomable, Your mercy and grace is as big as the universe, Your answers to prayers are never ending.

BUT I also read that You warn Your children over and over that You are a jealous God, that You EXPECT us to live according to Your commandments and that not one word or title may be changed to suit OUR interpretation or OUR lifestyles.

The world has become no more than animals:
- sex is natural - we cannot do without it, it is unnatural not to have it, God created it after all and therefore He would not expect us to say no, even if not with my wife/husband
- God will forgive and He has brought this over my path therefore I have to do it
- It is such a good deal, it MUST be from God
- the world is doing it, the only way to do business and therefore I cannot be expected to not do it - so lets bribe and call it something else
- we have to live in faith, it is wrong to actually use the very brain and common sense that You have provided for us
- do not be such a wet blanket/ party pooper
- this is the way the world behave, so we just follow along and do it too

We do not control our natural urges, we do not use common sense and intelligence, we do not pray and ask for insight, wisdom and guidance, we feed the flesh, we just crave pleasure and instant gratification, we want it and we want it NOW


"You do not expect me to go without . . ., do you?"
"I do not believe that you are going without . . ., p lease tell me something else!"

I am so frustrated, not with the non-believers, but those who spout their believe/faith every time they get an opportunity, and live such "holy" lives, but who do not live what they read/learn/hear. It does not go from the eyes to the soul and heart and conviction of faith

I am so angry at the weak diluted glamor show of the western Christians.
I am so frustrated with the lies of the satan that are eaten as if it is pure gold, straight from Your mouth.
I am so sad at what we have become and that nobody actually care.

I am so disappointed to be called a freak, uptight, holier than thou by my very brothers and sisters in the blood of Jesus - those who should be standing up for who and what YOU are in unmovable faith.

I am so tired of wanting more from my Christ family than a slight variation of what the world is offering and living and believing.

Daddy - what do we do?
What do we do?

Daddy I am so sorry for what the world has made YOU - the most Holy, the most High, the Alpha and Omega, the Omnipresent, Omnipotent, All Knowing, the King of Kings, The Lord of Lords, the Lover of Your children.

Daddy I am so sorry!!!!!!
Daddy, please forgive us, because we do not even know what we do, in the name of our Bridegroom, Jesus Christ